Dreams

My 9 year old son came up to me this morning and said, "Mom, what is your dream?" I asked him to elaborate and he went on to say, "You know, what is your dream for your life?" Astounding. I went on to say that my ultimate dream is to be able to help people on a consistent basis and truly make a difference in this world. There have been various things that I have been interested in during my lifetime. I wanted to be an actress, a lawyer, a business owner. I feel passionately about so many things that when people have asked me what I want to "do" with my life, it is a hard one for me to answer. But for some reason, when my 9 year old asked me that question this morning, it hit me. I want to make a difference. Truly.

When I was a little girl I would play make believe just like every other little girl. Except I would play business owner. I had an old phone of my parents and office supplies and I would go in (almost on a daily basis) and set up my "office". I would then pretend to answer my phone, type letters, and make notes on what I was to do that day in my "office". Even then, I wanted to be doing something. Making a difference. I wanted to be actively pursuing whatever kind of business could change things for the better. Plus, I really liked having my own phone. ;)

I went through various stages in life trying to "find myself". Trying to come to the conclusion of what God would have me to do. What path would He have for me? I became a mother and a wife very young. To be honest, I became a mother first and then a wife. When I was only 19. I was then divorced and then re-married and now have a wonderful husband and 4 wonderful children. Needless to say, I have been very busy over the past 12 (almost 13!) years. Recently I had a stirring within me to do something different. Not to do something instead of being a wife and mother, but to add to that. I have had a stirring to move forward in that dream that was placed in my heart so many years ago. To have my own business and have it be the vehicle to truly make a difference. I just didn't know what it was going to be.

Then, the opportunity to be a Consultant for the Mary Kay Corp. came about. To be honest, I wasn't interested at first. I thought to myself that it would be hokey and most people that do it probably fail. But there was a continued tugging in my heart, so I talked to my husband about it and asked him to pray about it. I did the same and told God that I would have to have (don't you love it when you TELL God what to do?!) a VERY clear answer. I told Him that I wasn't going to invest in this business unless I knew that it was from Him. This went on for weeks. One morning I was driving home and I was praying about it again and I said, "God, I really need to know." I pulled into my driveway and looked in my rear view mirror and saw a brand new Mary Kay car parked right across the street from my house.

I'm sure God was saying, "Is that clear enough for you?!" I then went in and emailed my husband at work, told him what happened and asked him what his thoughts were. He emailed me back and said he thought I should go for it. So I did. So, my dream of having my own business had come true. I was laying awake that night and something came to me out of nowhere (Ok, it was probably God again) and I realized that I could use this as a vehicle to help others. That I could give back out of all of my proceeds to help different organizations and ministries who are also trying to make a difference. My head was swarming. Swarming with so many ideas of how I could do that. That is when I thought to create this blog, to help get the word out about my passion to use my business to help others. And to give all women a place to connect with each other.

So, that is where this blog came from. It came from a dream that God placed in my heart a long time ago. I have my days where I think that I won't succeed. That this was all in my head and I should just give up now. Then I have my days where I think that God can do anything and if He wants me to do this, I'm game. I guess that is how most people feel when they embark on something new. And that is when God asks us to trust Him and move forward. And to be honest, I may fail. But I am moving forward into something that I feel very passionately about. Helping others. And I told my 9 yr. old the same thing. Always be willing to follow what you feel passionately about. Whatever your dream is, it is there for a reason. And my hope is that this business will succeed so that I can make a difference for others.

So, what are your dreams?